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Who want's to live forever? I do. [Jul. 30th, 2006|11:14 pm]
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I was thinking about things today, about people that I miss. People that I'll probably always miss no matter how many times I see them and I became really sad. I don't think I'll ever get them back. But I also know that it's time to stop being selfish and let it all go. I say I've let it all go, but I know I really haven't...

I started reading the book Pandora by Anne Rice and it as well is making me sad. You know, vampires are immortal and I suppose it made me sad because I'll never be immortal. I want to live life so bad and it seems like right now I'll die before I ever get to do it. I'll be dead so I won't know it, but right now it pisses me off and makes me that sickeningly numb feeling when I think about it.

I know I shouldn't think about it. But it's hard when my book and movies revolve around it. And no, I won't stop reading them just because. I just hope against hope that I live to be 103. I want my grand-children to have grand-children, I want to tell stories and have a huge history to tell to them about myself.

I'm asking a lot, I know. Or I'm just being really stupid.

Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more; it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.

Damn Book. Damn Shakespeare.

[User Picture]From: xingou
2006-07-30 04:08 am (UTC)
See, I am exactly the opposite, but maybe that is because I have already done so much. I don't want to live to be old. 65 is plenty for me.

The most you can do is rally the courage to go out and do things now. It seems impossible, but its really not. You're young, you have lots of time.
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[User Picture]From: secondhandred
2006-07-30 04:40 am (UTC)
I've ALWAYS wanted to live to be old. I work with old people and very much enjoy hearing the stories they tell me.

It's not that I'm afraid of dieing or that I don't live life to the fullest, it's sort of like I'm stuck right now. I can't do anything that I want to do just yet. Mainly money is keeping me from it.

I say that, but you know, it could just be my lame excuse. :(
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[User Picture]From: xingou
2006-07-30 06:29 am (UTC)
I have only met maybe three old people in my life that I liked. Old people are rude and cranky.

Its not an excuse, I just happened to never worry about money. If it meant having to stay a few nights on the street here and there, meh. I didn't care. I was a bit stupid in that aspect actually. Its not a life for most people.
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[User Picture]From: secondhandred
2006-07-30 06:55 am (UTC)
I'd do it. If that's what I had to do. I guess I mean, I can't leave here and get to that point until I have the money to do so. Bah.

And you're right, almost all of them are old and cranky. But there's a 100 year old woman at the place I work at, and she's amazing. Yep, and very with it.

Question! If you have time, can you turn a picture for me into a Icon? http://i31.photobucket.com/albums/c351/Secondhandx/Bird.jpg

This one...

If you can, make one say Flight. And the other blank.
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[User Picture]From: xingou
2006-07-30 08:21 am (UTC)
Sell magazines door to door. XP

They can be cool at times, its just that most of the time I can't deal with them.

As soon as I have a free minute at my home computer. I spend most of my time at work or sleeping right now. Maybe on...Thursday night. Just remind me so that I don't forget.
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[User Picture]From: secondhandred
2006-07-31 11:14 pm (UTC)
:) Alright love. Thank you.

It's hot here, I heard it was acutally hotter there. How shitty is that. Meh.
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[User Picture]From: xingou
2006-08-02 10:40 am (UTC)
The index predicts 114 degrees today. ::ded::
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